You made it to 50 that is saying something. I lost more people in the past ten year ,and not from the virus , there are to many to count. and many didn't get the chance to be happy , life is short ,you put in your time you earned the right just saying , if you are honest ,this is how I feel , You can bet i am getting heat my sister lost it on me before christmas i was down , but hell or highwater i am going to make this happen or die trying. Oh and my mom pick my new name so how cool is that, she cried when i told her how much i suffered over the years now I get cards from her with my new name , nothing could compare. well maybe over stated but you get what I am saying i hope. and i am not try to push you ,that is up to you, but if you need to talk pm me at vickicrisswaters@gmail.com I can just listen and not offer whatever when ever 24/7 365 just saying